When Love Comes Knocking at the Door

What would you do when love comes knocking at your door?

I mean, literally.

And by that i mean, someone that you used to love.

What would you do?

Would you go running into his arms?

Would you cry at the sight of him?

Would you go weak at the knees and beg him to come back to you?

Would you look into his pleading eyes and fall in love with him all over again?

Would you just forgive and forget all the awful things said and done?

You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
You broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we where seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I

The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
You broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me

No. i would not.

I hate you forever.

Not because of the things that you said and did to me.

I hate you because..

..because of you, i lose myself.

Dear Yaya

July 6, 2009.

It's Yaya's 2* Birthday!!!! (i'm not allowed to reveal your age here, i guess.)

Happy Birthday to my beloved friend, confidante, roommate, colleague, driver, passenger etc etc..

Love you to bits!

Ahli Kumpulan Ibu-Ibu.

(Duduk di hadapan: Zura. Belakang dari kiri: Yaya the birthday girl, Ceda)

Nothing Else Matters

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

I never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for things they say
Never cared for games they play
I never cared for what they do
I never cared for what they know
And I know.

To That Particular Someone.

I don't know how to describe my feelings right now.

I feel...betrayed...emm..i don't think 'betrayed' is the correct word because you can only feel betrayed by someone who you trust but honestly, i don't trust that person...not in a million years...so what's the word for my feelings right now...arggh..i really don't know what's the correct word for it.

I feel...like kicking that someone in the face and tell that someone to mind his/her own business?

I feel...like telling that someone to let me live my life as i prefer it to be rather than having that someone to judge me over and over again for whatever decisions/actions that i made in my life?

I feel...like telling that someone not to bother unnecessarily with my personal life as I've never interested in meddling unnecessarily into his/hers?

I feel...like killing that someone?

>_<

I don't know why this particular someone never tire his/herself out by constantly living his/her life in the notion of making my life a miserable one. Like i've said in my previous entry, i don't know why people keep butting in my personal life because i've never bothered butting in others' (especially in that particular someone's!). somewhere, somehow, people will find a thousand ways to make me fall and i ask myself, what have i done to that person that makes him/her hate me so much?

I feel like crying right now but i know it's useless. besides, what's the point crying over that particular someone? damn useless.

Does it ever matter to that someone that things might be different than he/she thinks?

Does it ever occur to that someone that he/she never ask or listen to my part of the story but still he/she is yelling out to the world about me in his/her own version of the story?

No. Somehow, these petty questions never have crossed his/her mind at all.

This person is happily yakking about me. who gives you the right to do that? have i done something to offend you? have i ever go around spreading stories that are not true about you? (like what you did to me?)

Please stop before i lost my mind, my patience, my temper.

Yeah, maybe now you see me as someone who is not so outspoken.

Maybe all this while i just sit, and watched, and listened to you telling stories about me.

I know you've been talking behind my back, and all this while i just close my eyes and hope that one day, you'll realized what you have done.

Please respect my personal life as i've been respecting yours all this while.

Please don't make me lose my respect, my love, my adoration or whatever feelings that i may have for you all this while just because of this stupid thing.

Please don't let the monsters in me out or you'll regret it.

Berita Terkini, Siri Harry Potter dan juga The Sims 3

Lately aku macam tiada mood untuk membelog. Macam dah hilang inspirasi pulak. banyak je aku amik gambar2 mngenai benda2 yang menarik pada pandangan aku sambil berkata2 dalam hati, "ha, yang ni seswai kalau nk letak dlm blog!" tapi sesudah itu gambar2 itu akan hanya duduk diam di dalam fon ataupun kamera aku. paling tidak pun, aku transfer aje kesemuanya dalam pendrive. pastu, duk berhabuk laa kat situ.

Hari2ku dipenuhi dengan percubaan membuat kerja2 akademik seperti mengconstruct final exam paper (sangat2 laa aku tercabar dengan windows 2007!! dang!!), melihat ikan2 aku dan merancang2 untuk menambah koleksi, serta my latest craze for the time being-bermain The Sims 3!! aku sangat gila bermain sehingga pukul 5 pagi! aku sudah amat bosan dengan The Sims 2 jadi aku bersyukur kerana kekasihku adi telah membelikan The Sims 3 dan juga telah berbaik hati menginstallkannya ke dalam lappy saya. thanx babe.

Malam2 ku juga telah menjadi insomnia. benda ni bermula sejak minggu terakhir cuti haritu di mana aku dengan gatalnya telah memulakan misi "Mari Membaca Semula Siri2 Harry Potter" pada setiap malam. Aku akan membaca dari pukul 8 malam hinggalah subuh keesokkan harinya, tidur, bangun untuk masak, kemudian aku akan tidur semula pada waktu petang, dan pada waktu maghrib aku akan bangun semula dan akan mulakan aktiviti membaca pada waktu malam. itulah yang berlaku setiap hari sehinggalah aku menghabiskan Siri kelima-Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix. Siri ke enam-Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince dan juga siri yang ke tujuh-Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows aku tak sempat nak baca berikutan masalah2 peribadi. dan aku amat menyesal kerna sekarang aku sudah seperti terbiasa tidak tidur malam. ditambah pula dengan kehadiran The Sims 3, lagilah aku mendapat dadah untuk tidak tidur. huuuu apakah..

Overall, aku amat suka The Sims 3. dari segala segi ianya lebih baik dari The Sims 3 dan sangat2 logik jika nak dibandingkan dgn The Sims 2. macam real life. sangat best. so kepada mereka yang selalu berangan2 nak escape form the real world dan menjadi orang lain tu, silakanlah beli atau datang saja berjumpa saya untuk meminjam dvdnya k.

Jadi, apakah tujuan sebenar entri ini?

Emm. ntah.

Terlanjur Cinta

For whom it may concern:

Waktu bergulir lambat
merantai langkah perjalanan kita
berjuta cerita terukir dalam
menjadi sebuah dilema
mengertikah engkau
perasaanku tak terhapuskan

malam menangis
tetes embun membasahi mata hatiku
mencoba bertahan di atas puing-puing
cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang ku genggam
tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu
dan tlah kuberikan seluruh hatiku
tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan cintaku

aku pun tak mengerti yang terjadi
apa salah dan kurang ku padamu
kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan
karna sekali cinta, aku tetap cinta

mencoba bertahan di atas puing-puing
cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang ku genggam
tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

Emotional Breakdown.

Apa ye yang mampu kita buat bila orang tak suka dengan kita?

Kita kena terus terhegeh2 ke supaya orang2 tersebut suka kat kita?

Kita kena tetap menebalkan muka ke?

Is it really worth it???

I'm really sick and tired of this fight...

:(